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Posted by RedMarlin - October 15th, 2020


I've not been feeling well mentally and my drawings have suffered as a result. I don't know when the next piece will be made or how many more Inktober pieces will come out.

I can't tell if it's because I'm genuinely ill or if it's because of life's natural demands. I feel as though if I had more time each day this wouldn't be a problem. Either way something needs to change.


Posted by RedMarlin - September 22nd, 2020


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It's finally cold again, thank goodness.


Work is back to full time, which is good because I like money but bad because I like time.


Everyone keeps banging on about Clip Studio Paint, so I've decided I'm going to give it a try, but I want to have a few sketches on hand in order to maximize the time actually using the software. Also I want the sketches for Inktober, one or the other. So there will be a dry spell.


It feels as though every new drawing I make has to be better than the last, and every new finished piece has to be the next masterpiece. It's easy to forget all of the failures and pitfalls that paved the way to one single moment of success. I'm trying to build more confidence, but it's not always easy. It's strange how it works. It seems like things that are noted for later and planned out rarely turn out satisfactorily, but brief moments of impulse lead to some of the best things. I wonder where the sweet spot is between caring enough to make it look nice while not caring so much that it leads to overworking and frustration.


That said, I've been trying to push myself in terms of perspective - which has led to a few good ideas, and I'm excited to keep going. But I have a feeling my art will look worse before it looks better, so I just need to be ready for that.


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Posted by RedMarlin - August 23rd, 2020


It's been just over a year since I started doing my little entries here on NG. In some ways things have changed, in other ways things haven't. In some ways I feel more restrained than ever, in other ways I feel more free than ever. I've let some things go and taken other things on. I still feel like I have a ways to go in terms of bettering myself mentally, but compared to where I was last year, I think there has been some improvement.


Art-wise, I feel as though I've improved a decent amount from last year, though of course the road will always wind on. Although I feel like I've tried for many different endeavours, even though not all of them have come to fruition (like that book, again...) I still feel like I have been reasonably productive in my work. Though I wish I could focus entirely on drawing, lately my attention has been split between several different endeavors - each of which are satisfying in their own right, and more importantly each of which are furthering me in some way. Still, I don't want to lose my drawing capabilities, even if I do feel fatigued at times.


Anyway... I felt like I should write something since it's been a month since the last one and a year since the first. I don't feel the need to do these anymore, so I suppose this is a good way to cap them off.


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Posted by RedMarlin - July 19th, 2020


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I don't know how thrilled I am with how this one is turning out. The sketches seem fine, but I seemed to reach a mental block when it came to taking the step from rough sketch to refined idea. Five hours of working on it... seems like such a waste of time. I feel like other artists would be more than finished by that point.


Oh well. It's 2:38AM now. We'll pick it back up tomorrow morning.


Posted by RedMarlin - July 18th, 2020


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Boy howdy, the things you do for a reference.


Work has cut hours again, yet despite this it's somehow been more stressful than ever before, mostly because going there for less than four hours each day is like sticking your head in a burning building to see what part is on fire the most so you can throw a bucket of water before ducking back out. To top it off, apparently unemployment gets cut off next week unless the feds can get their heads together and extend it (they probably won't) so there's that to look forward to.


With all that, I've been considering for a while opening up to commissions, but of course if I do that I'd probably have to make a couple of drawings featuring people wearing clothing. I imagine my commissions would be the most narrowly-scoped things one could think of.


Video essay is about 17 minutes into an hour-long presentation. Takes about an hour to do a minute's worth of visuals, so it's still going to be a while. Fun though, and at least unlike SPNATI there's a clear end goal with no shifting bar to worry about.


I also haven't forgotten about the book project.


Posted by RedMarlin - July 9th, 2020


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This has been quite a frustrating experience, all the more exacerbated I'm sure due to the fact that the other half of this piece is already done and waiting to be shown. It's hard when you feel like all the time you've put into something still amounts to little when in the face of a new challenge. You think you know something well, but you don't.


It also doesn't help when half the tutorials you look up have a very "draw the rest of the fucking owl" approach to them.


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Posted by RedMarlin - July 6th, 2020


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The fireworks have finally stopped.


I drew a figure and wanted her to interact with something, then I had the idea of adding a giant, ancient robot of sorts. Juxtaposition and all that. I got about this far into the sketch when I realized I know fuck-all about drawing robots, and the journey to try and figure that out has thus far been a rather frustrating one. Unfortunately, usually when I get stuck on something my mind goes into fight-or-flight mode and starts rapidly turning this way and that in a desperate attempt to "do the thing". This then spills over into other activities, because I have to do something correctly, but I'm so preoccupied with succeeding at something that I wind up floundering at everything I'm doing. Even while writing this my mind is racing this way and that. Very impatient. Maybe it's a dopamine thing.


Anyway... I'm tempted to isolate the figure and treat it as its own piece so that I feel more relaxed about taking the time to learn how to draw robots properly, but I also think this composition works well and I don't want to put out half an idea. So I'll probably just shelve it for the time being.


Video essay is still going at a decent pace, but the audio alone is an hour long and it takes about an hour just to do the visuals for one minute of the video. So it'll be a while before that gets completed as well.


We're moving into more long-term projects. I think that's having an effect on my mind as well, since most of the stuff I've done this year is quick and simple. I need to learn to be more patient.


Posted by RedMarlin - June 18th, 2020


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Progress.


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Posted by RedMarlin - June 17th, 2020


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I wanted to try and do an actual background this time but I don't think it complements the main figure very well, also I don't have as much experience so it's taking some time. I'll take another whack at it tomorrow and see if I can't get something better.


Posted by RedMarlin - June 16th, 2020


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Tonight I tried experimenting with colored lighting, but in the end it just looked like I had drug the slider on the hue adjustment. Fortunately it was easy enough to then use the hue adjustment to bring it back, so no harm done.