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Posted by RedMarlin - June 16th, 2020
This isn't quite turning out how I want it to. Maybe if I had inked it beforehand so I had a little more wiggle room when shading. But by this point I'll probably just use the watercolor method since by this point it's tried and true, and also super fast in comparison. Ready to have this finished so I can get back to the longer-term projects.
Posted by RedMarlin - June 14th, 2020
I've been trying to use different media besides watercolor with these past couple of pieces. Though this one was supposed to be like oil paint, I realized it's basically my old rendering method. Not bad, but very time consuming, and I'm fighting the sketch and the white of the canvas rather than using them. Still, gives a decent result in the end.
Posted by RedMarlin - June 13th, 2020
Sure has been a hot minute. Not that the past two weeks haven't been productive, they just haven't had anything to do with drawing and/or the book. But finally this weekend I sat down and did some actual art again. Not much, but still felt nice.
The project I'm working on now is another medium-term one that I'm hoping to have finished in the next few weeks, then it's back to the book.
Posted by RedMarlin - May 22nd, 2020
Here they are, the last pages of the first draft. I tried coloring the first one but it didn't turn out how I wanted so I'm going to give it another go, hopefully tomorrow if I can wrench myself away from Terraria for long enough. I try not to feel bad for not working on art for so long, since my job's been pretty grueling as of late and I don't think I should feel bad about enjoying a game I've played for so long given that it's recently updated, but I still do feel guilty if I go for too long. Though I suppose that's a good thing, in a way.
I still feel like I have a lot of revising I want to do in terms of how I draw and color these things, but I am still very excited to have a first draft done.
Posted by RedMarlin - May 17th, 2020
I hadn't been feeling motivated to work on anything these past few days and I wasn't sure why. I think I was feeling disappointed with how the book was turning out which in turn killed the momentum and made me lose some confidence. But I tried again today and used a slightly different method, and my confidence and motivation are now starting to come back.
Unfortunately the new Terraria update came out so that has been very distracting too! But I want to keep working on this tomorrow and also there's a new sketch I want to turn into another single piece.
Of course now that my computer is about to shut down I feel motivated to work on art again, but alas I have work in the morning. Sometimes I'm tempted to quit my job and live off savings while trying to establish myself as a freelancer, but I feel that would be a very stupid move.
Posted by RedMarlin - May 14th, 2020
It's been a tumultuous past couple of days, with tonight's session being especially rocky. The day itself wasn't pleasant, with work dragging on and my work-from-home days most likely coming to an end. My plants once again are leggy and falling over despite my best efforts to grow them properly, the kitchen was a mess, and I just could not seem to focus on anything.
That all carried into tonight, and after drawing about a dozen pages of scratches while trying to figure out what I want to do with this damn fox, I eventually started drawing new pages on paper instead of digitally, since I decided it would look better due to the dynamic look of the pencil lines, but then I kept screwing up, because I'm trying to draw the fox with just one line and no sketching, which is difficult despite the simplistic and messy style, so I kept having to erase and draw again, and traditional art leaves scuffs and marks behind unlike the clean erasure of digital, so that left me in a conundrum too.
I look at all the art around me, including the new background image as I write this, and I see all sorts of different styles, and I can't help but wonder how much thought goes into them and how it compares to me. Did Maurice Sendak spend weeks on end determing the skeletal system of the wild things? How much time did Dr. Seuss spend sketching the building blocks of a Sneech?
Children's books often act as licenses to use unique and unorthodox art styles, including some that appear very messy and childlike themselves, and while it's tempting to say, "That's what I'm going for," a large part of me yells at myself for thinking that, saying it's just an excuse to half-ass the work and be lazy.
Finally I came to two realizations. The first came as I was trying to sketch one of the final drawings of the book. The fox is making her way back home (spoiler alert!) and all the little creatures are looking at her in awe as she glows bright from having been to the Moon. And I sat there trying to draw all those creatures when I finally realized, I have no fucking idea how to draw any of them! And what was I going to do, belt them all out in 5 minutes so I could finish and feel good about it?
So there was the first realization: because I've told others that I'm making this book, I've now put an unreasonable amount of pressure to finish as quickly as possible, and thus we get all the conundrums faced here. That's why I haven't been able to sit down and delve into this like I have with my standalone pieces.
The second realization came as I was writing this just now - you know what the difference is between all those illustrators and me? I'm the only one who's not having any fun! That's not quite right, now is it.
I feel renewed now, but it's 12:10 and I need to get ready for bed. I imagined if I stayed up until the wee hours I'd have something I adore, but I'm trying to curb my sleep habits. A constant balance between enough time for art, enough time for socializing, and enough sleep. Another problem to deal with.