I know I keep saying this, but I think now I'm ready to start inking. I can't think of anything else to add, except maybe some rocks in the dirt, but I can freehand those.
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Posted by RedMarlin - March 11th, 2020
I keep thinking I'm ready to move ahead to inking but then I keep remembering other details I wanted to add. I drew some flowers, though not too many since this is getting pretty crowded already. But then I remembered I want to bury the main vine where the secondary vines are coming out as some gardeners do, and also draw some dirt on Ray. So we still have some ways to go before the next step. Oh well. Hopefully it's worth it.
Also sad news - apparently the convention that I had designed a mascot for has been cancelled thanks to the virus, so that farmer lady will not be seeing the light of day. Hopefully they use her for next year, but no guarantees.
Posted by RedMarlin - March 8th, 2020
Busy work week and busy weekend meant I haven't had much time to work on this, but finally tonight I sat down and managed to get into a groove after some resistance. Sometimes you just have to force yourself and before you know it you're in it.
More leaves. I got finished with the session and realized I completely forgot about adding flowers and bulbs, so that's next on the list. Trying to take this one step at a time. Hopefully once it's colored Ray will stand out a bit more. I think he's starting to get lost in all the minute details.
Posted by RedMarlin - March 3rd, 2020
Now that I've had some practice with the leaves and the overlaps are all taken care of I think this is starting to come together pretty nicely! I'm going to keep adding more layers of detail, specifically the tertiary vines (apparently they're usually trimmed to keep the vine healthy, but those little curly vines are too pretty not to include) and I'm going to bury the bases of the secondary vines in mounds of dirt like some gardeners do. Maybe try drawing some dirt on Ray too.
Now that it's entered the grind portion I've tried to keep a steady pace without trying to rush to a finished product. I think I have a bad habit of going for the sprint when I should be going for the marathon.
I still have that piece for Athena planned after this. That sketch turned out so well that I've been anxious to use it. I also have another idea for a piece after that. I don't know how long I can keep this naturism train going, but as long as they're coming it's not like the practice hurts any.
Posted by RedMarlin - March 1st, 2020
I managed to get my hands on a leaf that looks very similar to what I was trying to draw, so now I have a real-life reference as opposed to just photos, which is a big help. That said, drawing these is officially a grind. So much for the magic feeling. Oh well. 1% inspiration 99% perspiration as they say.
Posted by RedMarlin - February 29th, 2020
Today was a very productive day. I got my taxes done, got groceries for the week, and worked more on this thing. This has turned less into a feel-good meditative session like the initial sketch was and more of an iterative, comprehensive exercise, but I suppose when things get more complicated than a single person and you start having overlapping objects and whatnot you have to forego the relaxed atmosphere in favor of more thorough planning.
It was frustrating a bit today and my mind started to clutter up, but then I remembered that I'm not exactly an expert at drawing pumpkin plants and I'm specifically trying to go for finer detail than a quick once-over. Of course it's going to be difficult. But I think I've finally reached something that I'm satisfied with enough to start inking. I'll probably add more leaves in the background, but that can come later.
I think the feel of the piece is turning out how I want as well, which is also important.
Posted by RedMarlin - February 29th, 2020
Kind of a loose night. I wanted to work on art but I wasn't quite feeling it enough to get into a focused mindset. I wound up doing more thinking about the story. If I'm being honest, I don't know what I'm going after, really. I thought I had a story, but in the end I feel it strayed too far in a direction I didn't plan on taking it. At its core it's about these two characters, how they meet, how they interact, and how they part ways. How that happens has evolved over a very long time - almost a decade, even. My tastes have changed since then and I think it's affected the kind of story I've wanted to write, to the point where who these characters were back then is different from who they are now. I feel like everyone has "that story" that they want to tell, but I have yet to discover just what mine is. But I'm getting there.
Posted by RedMarlin - February 25th, 2020
I finally had the time to sit down and draw this evening. Did both some free sketching and some work on the pumpkin painting. Although I have a vision in my head of how I want this piece to turn out, I'm finding that rendering it in fine detail is difficult. I think half of it is that the general vision for the behavior of the plant doesn't completely match up with the actual physiology of a pumpkin, and also I need more practice drawing the leaves. Too bad it isn't Fall.
I also finally did something I've wanted to do for a while and recorded myself as I drew. I've always felt like the process I use to get from point A to point B on my better drawings is lost because I get in the moment and then forget exactly what I did. Unfortunately I don't think I quite got there today (but I didn't get frustrated! I realized where I was doing something more difficult and let myself mess up) but I still think it will be useful to go back over. I also recorded my screen as I did the pumpkin drawing. One thing I'm noticing off the bat is that I'm going back and undoing a lot of things and petting lines a lot. I think I need to work both on drawing my lines with more conviction, and drawing my overall piece with more confidence, letting myself continue on with the composition a bit longer before deciding it's not heading in the right direction.
I want to keep going but I think it's a good stopping point for this evening. I already know what I want to try for next time.
Posted by RedMarlin - February 19th, 2020
Another frustrating night. This makes I think the third attempt in a row of being unable to capture that golden moment again.
That drawing of Kneesocks wasn't created in such a way. It felt hammered out rather than effortlessly conjured. Was it because it was a less familiar pose? Perhaps, but I still think I wasn't in the same state of mind.
Tonight I tried an exercise I came across online where one draws a page full of lines as slowly as possible. The idea is to get your mind to hush out all the rushing thoughts and slow down. It worked at first, but I found that after a while my mind began wandering again out of boredom, particularly when reaching the halfway point and also when approaching the end of the paper. It took roughly 40 minutes to make that.
Once I started drawing though, I must say I found that for a brief moment I was in that state. Only briefly though, and not as strong. I think although I tell myself I'm going to let go of any expectations of completing another masterpiece, I secretly am still demanding one from myself. There's a paradoxical mindset where the realization that I am letting go of expectations sets up another realization that doing so allows for that flow state to occur thus resulting in good work, which leads right back around to expecting it again. I wish I didn't have to go through a mental breakdown every time to get it to happen. I also wish it didn't happen by surprise. Then again would training it and honing it take away the fun? The magic?
Eventually I became nervous again, to the point where my hand was hesitant and shaky. When that happens I try to get myself to relax but so far I can't get back once the moment is gone. It's like a barrier is broken.
Space, time, time, confidence, humor... I feel confident that I can make good work, but when the moment comes that confidence starts to slip. Funny how the drawings that got me out of such emotional turmoil are now beginning to cause it.
I'm going to try one more time tonight. We'll see what happens.
Of course now it's 12:45AM. A small price to pay I suppose.
I still think I like my other sketch of Athena more, but I think this one will grow on me too. I feel satisfied, but the feeling isn't particularly immense like it was with hers. Certainly better than Kneesocks' drawing.
Though I wonder if I'm not feeling much because I'm allowing myself to break it down more quickly to correct what I think is wrong and improve. Then again, I feel like I was doing that before anyway. Maybe it wasn't as much? I want to try and record myself at some point to see what the process is.
Maybe by anticipating it I'm ensuring it doesn't happen. I don't know.