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Posted by RedMarlin - April 28th, 2020


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We're doing it, baby, one page at a time.

I really really hope I can stay with this. I think I can, especially now that it's got some momentum.


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Posted by RedMarlin - April 25th, 2020


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Today I tried experimenting by holding three separate creative sessions, each lasting an hour and a half and spaced out with two and a half hours in between. Each session was also to focus on a separate project, with long, medium and short-term pieces.


That experiment, unfortunately, was a total failure. The morning's session went rather well; I decided on an art style for a children's book I'd like to make, and I began preparing the digital page templates for production, after which I hastily sketched out the first page, shown above.


Unfortunately, things went downhill from there. During the second session I spent time working on the snake drawing, during which I felt as though I did not get into the open mode at all, feeling rushed to get all the bugs drawn in perfect detail and having very little tolerance for failure or floundering. I'm beginning to wonder if these recordings are starting to do more harm than good. I have been uploading them online, and I suspect that by doing so I'm placing an unspoken pressure to perform well during them, so any mistakes or hesitation is amplified. Unfortunately, I think my workplace is to blame for that, as I have in the past been criticized for taking too much time, resulting in some internal conflict.


As a result, the second session ended with several different drawings of the same thing, none of which felt satisfactory. Worse still, looking back at the results of the first session, because the sketch I made was hastily done at the last minute just to get something down before the session ended, that now felt unsatisfactory, making the first session feel like a failure as well.


For the third and final session I decided to give myself a full hour to get into the open mode, during which I would not be at my desk but simply lying in bed with just my thoughts, letting them run themselves out in hopes that I could move on from the rush and the pressure to more calm, concentrated work.


This plan backfired terribly. After some time spent glancing at the clock, I eventually fell asleep - I suspected that might happen but I had hoped that when I woke up I might be ready to work. Instead I simply felt upset, with the previous sessions' shortcomings adding their weight to this final failure, and as a result even the tiniest annoyances, be they external or my own, went off like firecrackers in my head. Only now, an hour and a half after the session started, am I finally starting to calm down.


So there is the result of my Saturday's work: two separate projects in which I probably made some progress but am too blinded by frustration to see, and a third session which ended in disaster. As much as I can reassure myself that it was all an experiment, and sometimes things like this happen, and I can't get frustrated, etc., all those words seem to stick about as well as rocks on a wall when the time comes.


I am going to take some time to just make some paper stars, then we'll see what happens afterwards. Next time I think I will stick to just one project per day.


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Posted by RedMarlin - April 23rd, 2020


It's funny seeing other users' profiles and they have maybe 5 or 6 news posts and I'm over 100 after not posting anything for over half a decade. It's not even news, it's just me talking to myself.

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Getting smooth, undulating curves is always such a pain, but it's worth it.

I'm going to be including a short story with this one. It's mostly a metaphor for everything I've talked about in these, though there's one extra detail that I don't think I've mentioned.


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Posted by RedMarlin - April 15th, 2020


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Things have been going well. The mind train still has its ups and downs, but for the most part I think I have a handle on it. So far the whole lockdown business has not bothered me much... probably because I spend a lot of my time at my desk anyway. And while making less money from reduced work hours kind of sucks, it's at least afforded me the ability to work a little extra on my art.

I'm still kind of on edge about showing it to others in real life because of its subject matter, but I'm trying to not be afraid of it.


Posted by RedMarlin - April 9th, 2020


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I've been taking a few days to make a new background image for my different social media sites. It's been fun, though I wish I didn't have to worry about censoring everything so much.


Posted by RedMarlin - April 5th, 2020


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I feel the need to make these posts less and less it seems. I haven't been feeling as depressed as I once was.

Sometimes I worry that these drawings will be seen as creepy, but they helped me find happiness and they continue to do so.


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Posted by RedMarlin - April 5th, 2020


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I don't think that's how lemon wedges work, but for now I'm not going to worry about it.

The charcoal sketch turned out fairly well. I can see myself keeping a sketchbook of WIP images even if I don't use them for the final render. The water diffusion effect is new for me, but I think that's turning out decently as well. Hopefully this comes out well. Feels like the pumpkin piece.

I have to decide whether it's a case of Ray being very small or the teacup and whatnot being very big, as it will affect the physics of the water. That's one thing I always remember from Fantastic Voyage.


Posted by RedMarlin - April 2nd, 2020


iu_106833_3121503.jpgWith today's piece, I am now matched for the most pieces submitted in a year since my time here on NG. Quitting SPNATI was the best thing I could have done for myself. I don't think I realized how unhappy I was until it was out of the picture.


Posted by RedMarlin - April 2nd, 2020


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The ability to work from home has not done my sleeping habits any good, it must be said.

I drew these tonight mostly out of a sense of obligation to practice rather than some sense of burning inspiration. Still they turned out pretty well now that I'm looking back on them.


Posted by RedMarlin - March 28th, 2020


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I always envisioned this one being a black-and-white drawing, though it was going to be hard ink. I think I've learned I don't like that style so I don't want to try it for this one. I might regret that though, won't I? Now that I'm typing this... still, bird in the hand and all that. I hope I can do this sketch justice since it turned out so well. If anything the sketch itself isn't going anywhere, I suppose. I always get this mindset after making something so good that I'll never make anything better, but of course that's not true. The next good drawing is just around the corner, I just have to let myself find it. Might take a few tries, but it's there. It sneaks up on you unexpectedly, is the problem.


So much for AC commissions. Might try again after finishing this one.